Elusive

A letter to the elusive

Lately as I sit around the house I have been thinking about you, happy with life as it is but wondering if you're the one thing I've been missing, then I realize your not something I can wait around for, as elusive as you are, I need to be constantly looking for you. Be sure that I don't fear you, I have been close, very close to finding you, only for you to escape again in some other creative way. It's as if karma has been keeping me from you, but I know it can only last so long, and then I'll find you and it will be the last and only thing I will ever need to be happier than I already am.

Only on certain occasions have I thought your existence wasn't important, but it only takes a quick walk around the park or a glance into a fancy restaurant to see your many forms appear before I am reminded again of your controlling nature. It is the only type of control that I will freely allow, because I know in your true form, nothing else matters and trust is the only way to keep you alive. There are a million ways to describe you but I am sure the best way will never need the assistance of words to explain why you exist.

Very often do I see people looking for you too, many times they think they have found you only to be let down and disappointed by your evil twin, the twin that pretends to be you only to get what it wants. It's terrible, it's makes life unbearable sometimes and I have seen many people fall because the search is just too much, you are hard to find, exhaustingly elusive but I know it is in the search for you that makes finding you so much more valuable and lasting. I tell those who cry for you to not give up, but I fear many have met your twin and simply don't believe you're there.

Every once in awhile someone comes by and I can see you in them, but as with the others, trying to find you has been hard, I am confused if you are really you or your twin and I know that this has blinded me from knowing the real you. I will not give up, there are many of us looking for you and you will be found. Some will find you before others and they will be the lucky ones, but I know, I hope that you will not be so elusive to everyone, some need you more than you will ever know, I know I myself am very close and hope I can help those who have almost given up. You will be found and I won't need anything else. Your everywhere but no where, Your all around but hard to see, you are on everyone's mind and in the beginning of every paragraph in a summer poem. You are elusive, but I welcome the challenge.